A Day in the life of the Mom of anAddict

Does It Matter?

Guest blog shared by Laura Swank- author unknown

Is it a disease?
Or is it just a choice?
Does it even matter,
Since I can’t hear your voice?

Now the pressures off,
You don’t have to fight,
But when the day is done,
And I close my eyes at night…

What could you have been?
What could you have done?
Is what I think about,
When I think about my son.

Some call you a junkie.
I just don’t agree.
I see all these things in you,
That no one else can see.
Your art was just so beautiful.

Your lyrics, strong and true.
Why can’t they all see,
The things I see in you?

What you could have been,
What you could have done,
That’s what I dream about,
When I dream of you, my son.

So take it to the next life,
Your beauty will live on,
And I won’t let them forget you,
Even though your gone.

What could you have been?
What could you have done?
You did it, my beautiful boy,
Your love touched everyone…..

From parents who have lost…..- unknown author

In remembrance.
Home Base

Turbulance

I woke up today shrouded in worry & dread.. Wishing for so many “things” that I want to happen…..to me and those I love….
Things that would surely calm my riddled heart of chaos….
Watching the planes go to and from the airport and seeing my little doggie without a care in the world…..I realized that although those planes LOOK like they’re in a straight line…..it’s only because they are soooo close to their destination… They are coming in for the landing..or just taking off with high hopes and lots of turbo..lol yet in the air..they are tossed to and fro……Veering off course many times….

What if they gave up… midair…. And said to hell with these clouds..I can’t see where I’m going…..

Just like the plane’s journey mine and my kids’ are also riddled in clouds at times….turbulence….spilled drinks…. Vomiting…..
Fear, confusion, blankness, seemingly all around…

I realized that most of the “things” I want are long acting things..most are actually out of my immediate control…Sure I can do all the prep work & hustle in all directions trying this way and that way to pull people and circumstances my way…. Wanting immediate results!! But my work must end there…
At some point I have to give it up to Grace…and just love the journey without regard to the many possible outcomes.. i can still align myself into the highest vibration possible …

I can still give unconditional love and support…
But ultimately others have their part to play too…..I can’t force someone to hire me…I can’t take away my kids problems or pain….I can only fly steady…. And appreciate the many experiences and blessings I have NOW!
My day turned out to have allot of turbulence.. locked out of my house, phone dead. Wouldn’t charge. Stuck giving plasma for an hour with no book to read or phone to look at lol (that’s torture)..bombed one interview…
But I also rocked another interview! I was pretty much offered a position that I didn’t even apply for 🤞🙏(we’ll see on Friday)
And I was touched by the kindness angel 😇again… who always seems to rescue me.
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Life is sooooo full of blessings if we can look past the turbulence..

sothankful