Running Toward Pleasure
August 13, 2023
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The phrase spoken in Netflix’s new “Painkiller”: “All of human behavior is essentially comprised of two things: running away from pain and toward pleasure…….its a
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Spilled Granola
May 19, 2023
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The sun was beating down on my rented black Nissan Ultima as I pulled into the gas station. The temperature was going to reach a
The Beauty of the Cocoon
April 23, 2023
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When I was in Sedona a few years ago I was sick for 8 hours straight. Couldn’t lift my head enough to walk or drive.
Seeing The Beauty of the Dungeon
March 28, 2023
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Today was one of those days when I realized, again, how one day in your life can change everything you know. And how everything that
Self-Care Day
March 28, 2023
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Although I don’t have a giant round window, sparkling chandelier, or even a free-standing tub; I do have a small quiet condo in the suburbs
Building Emotional Walls
March 11, 2023
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For years I’ve built many walls. Each time I felt slighted or scared, used or hurt, I would add another brick. Brick by brick I
Addicted to Drama
February 12, 2023
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I read somewhere that we get a dopamine burst even in times of worry and pain. I thought, “How can this be? I thought dopamine
Self-Care Day
January 24, 2023
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Although I don’t have a giant round window, sparkling chandelier, or even a free-standing tub; I do have a small quiet condo in the suburbs
Click Your Heels Together 3 times
January 1, 2023
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And say “There’s no place like home”. Everyone wants to start the New Year fresh and free from the things that seem to cause us
Deep Learning versus Disease?
December 30, 2022
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I despise the argument of addiction being a disease or a choice. For the simple fact that I’m a nurse. If a child has a
365 Days
December 27, 2022
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As I watched the black swirly water from my home box of hair coloring make its way down the slowly backing-up drain; I thought of
The Christmas Letter
December 23, 2022
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Remember The Christmas Letter? We’ve all received them, folded & tucked inside the ever- dwindling colorful Christmas cards.” It was the one time that parents
Falling To Grace
December 8, 2022
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As my son’s life spins more out of control, I feel myself spinning too. Falling away from him. Away from having to defend him. Away
“Did You Hear What I Said?”
December 2, 2022
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These were the words I heard from my coworker as I turned to start my computer. I flipped my head around thinking I was in
Depression, Faith, Hope
November 20, 2022
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If there’s one thing I’ve learned the last few years, is it’s ok to not know. It’s ok to not know what the future holds.
Vulnerability
November 17, 2022
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Sucks. It really does. Because that’s usually how we get hurt or offended or disappointed. We finally get enough courage to open up and expose
Quiet Suffering
October 26, 2022
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I heard the squeak and the roar of the Monday morning trash pickup as it crept through the neighborhood. It was always a loud wake
Scapegoating in Addiction
October 26, 2022
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I’m not a therapist and I am NOT making excuses for the adverse and defiant behavior that typically manifests in addiction. What I have noticed
Kindness
October 12, 2022
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I wish I could say I was the epitome of kindness. I wish I was the one who does things automatically because I’m a good
Excerpt From 1000 Last Goodbyes
October 10, 2022
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Messenger Goodbye On August 20, 2019, this book was born. As I sat alone in my little condo wondering about and fearing for my son’s
Congruency
September 17, 2022
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Why there are ALWAYS. Three sides to every story. We all know that addiction brings out the huge parking lot of pain, disappointment, agony, despair,
Against A Crooked Sky
September 15, 2022
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As I drove through the windy canyon, the familiar rolling hills of my hometown gave way to the rows of turkey coops dotting the fields.
The Lure of the Chicken
September 10, 2022
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Admit it. You’ve done it. You’ve bought the chicken. You were minding your business, heading straight for the veggie section and there it was. The
Not My Child
August 31, 2022
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Overdose Awareness Day For all those who see all the purple banners today representing overdose awareness day and you scroll on by thinking: “I’m glad