New Hopes, Dreams & Intentions

On New Year’s Eve I watched our one and only firework we bought for $5.99 blow away the night sky with amazing sparks and sounds. I thought, “wow this is incredible! It’s more than I imagined from such a small package”.

It goes along with what I’ve been thinking that all that’s gold doesn’t glitter and how things are so ready to entice us into thinking they are.

I was thinking if I wanted to convince someone to come around to my way of thinking, I would likely try to put the fear in them that if they didn’t do (A) then this (B) is what would happen.

Ya know? Like Pavlov.

With addiction, threats and punishment doesn’t seem to create the desired result.

In fact, nothing seems to work. This creates a Petri dish of fear that breeds in it’s own bacteria causing more and more of the same.

If I were fear I would take away your clarity.
If I were fear, I'd take away your passion.
If I were fear I'd make you think there was no hope.
If I were fear I'd find every way possibly for you to say, "Why try?"
If I were fear, I'd push people away who have the ability to help, but not the knowledge.
If I were fear, I'd place every obstacle in your path.
If I were fear, i'd make you think you were not loved or lovable.
If I were fear, I'd make sure you felt crazy enough to not talk to people who care.
If I were fear, my ultimate goal would be to control your thoughts, feelings and actions.
Because if I can control just one little thought and keep it inside your head long enough, then I control YOU!
Hello my name is fear, nice to meet you.

I remember when I was a young mother and I became frustrated with my surroundings, I used to tell myself to do the opposite of what I thought. I figured if what I was doing wasn’t working then I needed to try something else. What I didn’t know then, was that was the power of intention’s tiny seeds being planted and sown.

With the New Year week just starting, one of my intentions is to not feed into this Petri dish. As a nurse, I’ve been trained to nip infections in the bud or to not let them start.

So I’m going to feed my Petri dish good things to grow.

Intentions of kindness

Intentions of acceptance

Intentions of love

Intentions of understanding.

Wayne Dyer was the king of intentions.

If your past Petri dish has not grown what you thought it would maybe it’s time to change what you put in it.

May we all have the courage to change our trajectory of creation.

Happy New Year 2022

We had joy, we had fun, we had seasons in the sun. ☀️But now winter is here & it’s that Cold time of year🥶🥶🥶 Goodbye 2️⃣❄0️⃣❄2️⃣❄1

⏳It’s been real⏳

You did teach me some valuable things.

That I can celebrate survival & still appreciate the challenge of living.

That I am capable of deeper love & forgiveness than I ever thought.

That people’s opinions of me doesn’t have to sway my belief of my true worth.

That planting continual non- wavering seeds of truth & acceptance can sometimes turn into trees of pure gold🎋💰🌳🌟

That no matter what you witness in others- disappointment, rudeness, being shunned; it is only a cover-up of the beauty that’s possible..👁️👁️
In them 💢& 💢 in You

YOU ,2021, taught me that I can never love my kids unconditionally ENUF
🚸💞🚸
And that I can get through hard things.

And most of all that fear, as an emotion, can come and go without sticking.😷just like the snow.

Hello 2022! 🎉🤹🌠

You make me want to try harder, love deeper, 🎶🎵sing louder🎵🎶 write more, 🍽️cook better &🏜️ travel 🏖️ so much travel .🗺️even if it’s only in my own mind🤯

New Year: Let’s be friends
🥈🔘🥈🔘
Let’s SEE CLEARLY👓
Let’s have new adventures 🥁& breakthroughs often💡….let’s join the L♥️V revolution & be smarter, nicer, richer,💰 kinder, & more tolerant 💜

Lets believe people when they show you how deep their pain is….& let’s show THEM how deeply love heals

💘🖤💘🖤💘🖤

Most of all 2021
Lets be friends & make this OUR year of

L♥️V

✌️PEACE

&

J📀Y!!

What the new year brings to you will depend a great deal on what you bring to the new year.” —Vern McLellan

Opinions Are Like…..Pools….

There’s one in every backyard and they’re full of…….leaves..

Life Lessons from the Pool

I had the entire pool to myself tonight doing laps, enjoying my solo aqua time- as usual, when a tall thin Chinese Olympic swimmer came in with her colorful braided hand woven chindi tote bag. As she stylishly pulled her swimming cap over her shiny dark pixie-cut hair; she placed her “eyewear” onto her delicate eyes to protect them from the savage chlorine and chemicals. I knew for sure that she was an Olympic swimmer, which is why I can confidently state- after the fact. – because she grunted every time she bobbed her head up between perfectly timed strokes.

So I did what any insecure middle age overweight person would do and stopped my pathetic slow motion strokes I had been doing (more like flabby arm belly flops) and took my pink floaty & went in the deep end and did scissors! Yes! My legs were my best quality so I’ll show her how precise my leg splits are 🏊🏅🏋. I was enjoying my dives down under until I got mixed up between the air and water locations and took a breath of water when I shouldn’t have.

As I tried to silently cough and sputter my way back to life; choking out water, chlorine and who knows what other chemicals, along with enough DNA to match 10 evidence tests; Miss Precise walked elegantly and choke-lessly into the hot tub & did a water aerobic tai chi ensemble.

Tired of my own ego- antics, I laid on my back and watched my belly float in the water as I contemplated the meaning of life.

Who was I? 
What was my purpose? 

Just the day before I had been told I’m a doormat by a co-worker. I was also told-THE VERY SAME DAY that I’m an amazing woman and an inspiration. So which do you think I focused on? Who do I Believe? Which words did I ruminate on as I lie in bed trying to sleep?

I don’t deny or discount any one persons opinion of me. They have a right to their perspective based on what they know OF me.
But I also don’t feel the need to explain my story and my struggles to someone in order to change their opinion of me.

Yet, here I am today feeling the same depreciating thoughts of not being enough as I explored in this post.

I have to remember that not everyone gets me or cares to, nor do they have the time for my shenanigans and that’s ok.
I can relish in the beautiful souls that compliment mine.

And, as Max Lucato says:

Proverbs 16:5 says, “The Lord despises pride.” So, get over yourself!

An elementary boy came home from tryouts for the school play. “Mommy, mommy” he announced, “I got a part. I’ve been chosen to sit in the audience and clap and cheer.” When you have a chance to clap and cheer, do you take it? If you do, your head is starting to fit your hat size.

Demanding respect is like chasing a butterfly. Chase it, and you’ll never catch it. Sit still, and it may light on your shoulder. The Bible says in Proverbs 27:2, “Don’t praise yourself. Let someone else do it.” Does your self-esteem need attention? You need only pause at the base of the cross and be reminded of this: The maker of the stars would rather die for you than live without you. And that’s a fact!

From Traveling Light- Max Lucado

It’s ok to not be the star, or the Olympic swimmer. It’s ok to be Ordinary.


Life’s a balance..

Kinda like trying to float on a pink floaty and not face flop into the water 💦